I killed a spider today... a big one. I know that doesn't seem like a huge accomplishment but even though right now my skin is crawling and I want nothing more than to run I'm proud. Normally I would scream and call some guy to come fix my problem.... and as I stood there looking at the spider I realized I've got to learn to do this on my own. I can't expect some guy to make this all better for me. I can't keep waiting on prince charming to show up and take me away from the scary or hard things in life. Love is strong, and the greatest but it doesn't fix everything...... I'm hurting right now..... but I'm on the road to recovery.... every step away from him I take is one step stronger in myself............. I believe in chance and I think that I have the chance to become who I need to be and finding the RIGHT man for me... trusting my gut is a priority.......