I've also decided that having two nightmares weeks apart about an ex isn't a good sign either. I mean serious nightmares... thankfully I DON'T have to ever see him again. I guess I felt more trapped than I realized in my past relationship. Alex was trying to explian to me about him and his ex and her feeling trapped but how she talked about marriage and then up and left and I got to think she did feel trapped but she thought if she resigned herself to marrying him she would be okay with it and even happy. thats what happened..... now I'm so scared of getting caged in by another guy. I can't commit. It literally makes me sick to my stomach to think of committing and bringing a guy into my family. I don't like txting and I don't want to talk on the phone. I'm happier with the idea of the unknown then knowing something and being disappointed. Its insane. I have this huge dream now and I want to accomplish it and honestly I can't see having a serious boyfriend as a goodthing. I don't want to be held back like I was before.