I'm waiting to go into work and I'm thinking about all the blessing in my life...... I have a wonderful family, great friends, I found a new job after only searching for a week that I love and make great money at.... I am blessed. I thought that I would feel an emptiness by not having a companion to share things with... some days I do but its so rare that the feeling in nothing but a passing moment of oh.... then I resume my normal life. Last night listening to my cousin talk at 2am about life and how hard it was I got the opportunity to think about everything... life can be hard, but it is even harder to walk away from life...... life is a dance and I have no clue what the steps are. some days I'm falling everywhere with no rhythm or hope for it and then other days its a graceful ballet.....