Sitting on the porch yesterday with my bestfriend gossiping about life men hopes and dreams I realized somethings about myself. I have a goal and dreams and they are going to come true. Letting things go is the easiest thing to do once you decide life is happy when you do.

I also realized that even though I have no desire to date anyone I still can care about him. Driving home I tried to sort out what I've been describing to him as complicated for the last few months... Yes he is my closest guyfriend and yes we will never be more then good friends. But I am protective over him and I enjoy him. But I also realized I feel what I do because he didn't push me to and I didn't expect to. He gives me my space and respects my dreams. When we disagree it is nothing more then a disagreement. I tell him time and time again that "were like fire and gasoline your I'm no good for you and your no good for me" but i still care about him and thats perfectly okay. :) :) :)