what do you do when there is nothing left to do? what do you do when words fail and your heart has fallen... fallen hit the ground.. fallen into the cement and your wondering how you suppose to pick it up. What do you do when you know the answer but wonder how he could have changed his mind? was it easy, did it happen fast? or was it something that had been happening over along time. Did you close you eyes one night and decide you had enough? was it that one last fight that through you over the edge? Does that mean that I don't have the worth to make someone happy?
NO. Let me tell you what it means. It means you scrape the pieces of your heart up of the ground. You use your friends, your family, and your faith in God and you draw courage from the crevices in your life that you never thought you would use. You take comfort in the fact that you are strong, you have a purpose, and that you'll never be lonely.

Life isn't about the chase. It about the steps it takes to be the person you want to be. Life is about learning to triumph with others in their accomplishments.

Its 11:34pm and I am wide awake. Today is one of those days when I don't understand reason and rationality escapes completely. I wish i could climb the clouds and sit in the sky. Looking down maybe I could better understand all of this.....

Its understandable for life to sometimes through some curve balls your way but other times its like woah. really??? Can I just get out of this?

Struggles are inside of me
telling me who I can and can't be
Hated words filled with rage handed down on silver plates
deafening sounds catastrophic in nature
silents prayers for understanding and patience

following the beat in my heart its swirling like the leaves of fall
I'm singing and no one can hear me
sweet melodies watching the lights turn
from day to night night to day
I dream about us I dream about comfort
falling from the sky in wet serenity
you can't hear me now
you can't feel me now
but I'm here... I'm waiting