Life is short. It feels like for years I've been fighting a battle trying to sift through the wreckage and find myself, make myself happy, give me that ending that I've lacked.

Its been a year of learning. Two May's ago I graduated from HS and started to grow up. I made some rash decisions, some stupid decisions, and some wonderful choices. College has opened up so much for me and I've become a strong, as my daddy would say, "sassy" woman.

The biggest changes is the passions. A search for a woman who gave me life, a choice to be with a man I love, and a choice to trust that the Lord knows what he's doing.

Today I found out that my highschool sweetheart after 1 1/2 finally got a new girlfriend... and you know how i felt???? HAPPY. I dont know what it is but I'm really happy for him. I hope that he loves her and treats her the way he never treated me. I hope they have a fantastic love story...

Its a wonderful thing to have put the past in the past. I've been blessed with a wonderful man who I adore and adores me. I can't imagine life without him. And because I am so happy it only seems fair that he should be too! More power to him!

Sometimes life is rocky. Everyday can be something different. It all comes down to how you decided to handle it. You can live life wishing you were something else, dreaming of being something else... or you can look at who you are, what you look like, and what you are capable of and you can say, God you don't make mistakes so I'm going to take this canvas that you've painted and I'm going to make the very best of it.